Motherhood

You came crashing into my life faster than lightning in a storm

You turned my world upside down

And forced me to truly look at the world differently

Becoming a mother is chaotic

It’s a confusing mess of emotions I couldn’t even concieve

The person I once knew had completely been abolished

And replaced with a sole focus that was not me

My brain turned to mush

My dreams cast aside

My body a foreign country

Everything I thought I knew was in question

But when I look in your eyes

I see the light

I feel complete

I could not imagine my life without you

You will forever be in my view

Words cannot describe the love I feel

Motherhood made me anew

 

Motherhood

What Now?

Feeling caged in

I don’t know the questions to even ask for the answers I need

I want things to change

Inside I am full of rage, hurt and despair

I just want someone to truly care

 

The universe is trying to send me a message

but it is lost among such confusion

What am I doing?

Where will I go?

Is it telling me to stay or go?

 

What is it that I need to know?

Nothingness circling inside my brain

I am searching for the words

to ease my pain

 

Send me a sign

give me a boost

help me see what I need to most

 

 

What Now?

If I Could I Would

If I could

Take the pain away baby, you know

I would, If i could,

Erase all the memories that haunt your brain baby

You know, I would If I could

Make it so you were always happy baby

Believe me I would If I could

Chase those demons

turn them to angels baby

For you I would if i could

When i tell you

That I love you baby

It goes so much deeper than I can show

And i just want you to know

That if I could

I would make your life

everything that you want it to be

Bring back those souls that you wish to see

Take all those tears and make them disappear

For you baby for you

I would do it all for you

Cause when you smile at me baby

All my pain just washes away

You are my light, my soul, the whole to my half

And for you I would do anything

If I could

Take your pain away baby you know I would, If i could,

Erase all the memories that haunt your brain baby

I would If I could

Make it so you were always happy baby

Believe me I would i would

You are my light, my soul, the whole

And for you

I would do anything

If I could

Make the past disappear

And erase mistakes I’ve made

You know I would

You know I would

If I could 

If I Could I Would

It’s time I come out

Not only do I write, but I make music. & I would like to finally share it with you all!

(However few of you there may be)

In addition, I would like to announce that my first Novella titled Beauty In The Breakdown has finally been completed and is now in the editing process. Once it is finished and online as an eBook, I will give you guys the link!

Be Creative! Be An Artist!

 

Here’s the link for an album by hubby and I made together. Its Hip-Hop/Pop/R&B

Honeymooners Escape’

https://www.reverbnation.com/marinajade/album/132593-honeymooners-escape

It’s time I come out

Emptiness

Don’t you notice the changes you see in me?

I’ve lost the most important person in my life,

and that’s me.

No longer a passion filled soul,

but wasting away behind 4 walls

My heart falls.

I feel empty inside

I haven’t felt this in an eternity

I feel inside me is a blank wall.

Where has my happiness gone?

Will it be gone long?

No one to talk to,

nowhere to turn.

I’m ashamed to admit I feel so alone.

I just keep telling myself its postponed.

Happiness is right around the corner,

but in this moment it feels like it could last an infinity.

 

Emptiness

The One

 

 

The One

 

Being with you

brings me to a higher being

no longer lost in these feelings

my affection for you runs so deeply

our souls intertwined

 

our love affair behind the blinds

to the world we are nothing

but in my room you are the one

 

the one i see

the one i feel and i breathe

being with you is like being in a heaven

i never want it to end

it feels like it may be bigger than the skys

 

my love for you

you are the one

you are my sun

my sky my sunshine and rain

everything i feel

but i hesitate

 

wrap my skin within yours

my body is all yours

shivers

across my skin

 

you must be the one

you are my sun

my night my day and every dream

i breathe you

 

my love for you

you are the one

you are my sun

my sky my sunshine and rain

everything i feel

but i hesitate

 

The One

Can I Be

Can I be the one you like

can I be your everything and more

baby this feels so right

I know I said I wouldn’t fall in love again

but the words of yours that flow through my head

inspire me and endlessly tire me

but I know that this feeling is real

What i have been searching for

below the surface

I feel your soul and my own

we meet for an eternity when we are together

and our souls stay united together

when I am around you I feel like a star

so high above them all

Can I be

Can I be

The one you need

the one you like

the one you caress all night

 

You’ve got my heart beating in double time

I don’t want to share with anyone that you could be mine

for fear they would find

what I already know

 

I just want to be

Can I be

Can I be

The one you need

the one you caress all night

Can I be the one you like

can I be your everything and more

baby this feels so right

 

-anonymous

Can I Be