What Now?

Feeling caged in

I don’t know the questions to even ask for the answers I need

I want things to change

Inside I am full of rage, hurt and despair

I just want someone to truly care

 

The universe is trying to send me a message

but it is lost among such confusion

What am I doing?

Where will I go?

Is it telling me to stay or go?

 

What is it that I need to know?

Nothingness circling inside my brain

I am searching for the words

to ease my pain

 

Send me a sign

give me a boost

help me see what I need to most

 

 

What Now?

If I Could I Would

If I could

Take the pain away baby, you know

I would, If i could,

Erase all the memories that haunt your brain baby

You know, I would If I could

Make it so you were always happy baby

Believe me I would If I could

Chase those demons

turn them to angels baby

For you I would if i could

When i tell you

That I love you baby

It goes so much deeper than I can show

And i just want you to know

That if I could

I would make your life

everything that you want it to be

Bring back those souls that you wish to see

Take all those tears and make them disappear

For you baby for you

I would do it all for you

Cause when you smile at me baby

All my pain just washes away

You are my light, my soul, the whole to my half

And for you I would do anything

If I could

Take your pain away baby you know I would, If i could,

Erase all the memories that haunt your brain baby

I would If I could

Make it so you were always happy baby

Believe me I would i would

You are my light, my soul, the whole

And for you

I would do anything

If I could

Make the past disappear

And erase mistakes I’ve made

You know I would

You know I would

If I could 

If I Could I Would

It’s time I come out

Not only do I write, but I make music. & I would like to finally share it with you all!

(However few of you there may be)

In addition, I would like to announce that my first Novella titled Beauty In The Breakdown has finally been completed and is now in the editing process. Once it is finished and online as an eBook, I will give you guys the link!

Be Creative! Be An Artist!

 

Here’s the link for an album by hubby and I made together. Its Hip-Hop/Pop/R&B

Honeymooners Escape’

https://www.reverbnation.com/marinajade/album/132593-honeymooners-escape

It’s time I come out

Emptiness

Don’t you notice the changes you see in me?

I’ve lost the most important person in my life,

and that’s me.

No longer a passion filled soul,

but wasting away behind 4 walls

My heart falls.

I feel empty inside

I haven’t felt this in an eternity

I feel inside me is a blank wall.

Where has my happiness gone?

Will it be gone long?

No one to talk to,

nowhere to turn.

I’m ashamed to admit I feel so alone.

I just keep telling myself its postponed.

Happiness is right around the corner,

but in this moment it feels like it could last an infinity.

 

Emptiness

The One

 

 

The One

 

Being with you

brings me to a higher being

no longer lost in these feelings

my affection for you runs so deeply

our souls intertwined

 

our love affair behind the blinds

to the world we are nothing

but in my room you are the one

 

the one i see

the one i feel and i breathe

being with you is like being in a heaven

i never want it to end

it feels like it may be bigger than the skys

 

my love for you

you are the one

you are my sun

my sky my sunshine and rain

everything i feel

but i hesitate

 

wrap my skin within yours

my body is all yours

shivers

across my skin

 

you must be the one

you are my sun

my night my day and every dream

i breathe you

 

my love for you

you are the one

you are my sun

my sky my sunshine and rain

everything i feel

but i hesitate

 

The One

Can I Be

Can I be the one you like

can I be your everything and more

baby this feels so right

I know I said I wouldn’t fall in love again

but the words of yours that flow through my head

inspire me and endlessly tire me

but I know that this feeling is real

What i have been searching for

below the surface

I feel your soul and my own

we meet for an eternity when we are together

and our souls stay united together

when I am around you I feel like a star

so high above them all

Can I be

Can I be

The one you need

the one you like

the one you caress all night

 

You’ve got my heart beating in double time

I don’t want to share with anyone that you could be mine

for fear they would find

what I already know

 

I just want to be

Can I be

Can I be

The one you need

the one you caress all night

Can I be the one you like

can I be your everything and more

baby this feels so right

 

-anonymous

Can I Be

The Fall

Sometimes

I dream of you

Your skin in the softly lit hue

Touching your hair,

Laying on the floor together

Chinese food

Tears

Love making,

Utter bliss,

And being so unknowing of it all

What I did not know

was that when I was with you

I had it all

348s

But then came the fall

The pain and regret

The unchangeable chain of events

That were to follow

Sent me to an unthinkable place

But these memories continue

to haunt my nights

steal my sleep

the pain still hurts,

still as bad as years prior

I had hoped one day these

thoughts would disappear

I just want you near

But now we are worlds apart

With different paths of the heart

I just wish for you to know how much I care

And how much I fear

repeating those mistakes I made.

On a daily I hold little regret,

But nights like these,

it is all so unclear.

I feel so much fear

And every fall these feelings appear.

I cant seem to forget you.

It tends to make me quite blue.

If only, I think.

But if only cannot be,

because you are no longer the one for me.

Though I wish you could be.

No longer a young girl,

I am now a grown woman,

But when it is in the case of you,

I still feel like a teen

Naive and quite keen

Part of my heart will always be you

No matter what I do.

My first true love,

I can only pray to meet another

Who continues to make me wonder

And dream

And persevere.

*pbw*, You’ve had my heart since that day

Keep it safe every fall.

We shall meet again,

of this I am sure.

-anonymous

The Fall